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Jul. 26th, 2006 03:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
textileowlDear Mind,
Stop playing games with my emotions. I know there are issues that I need to deal with and every once in a while I think about going to talk to someone about them, possibly once school starts again, I haven't decided. I don't need you to remind me of my insecurities and weaknesses while I'm the only one at work and need to get things ready in the morning by nine a.m. It does me no good to want to yell at the coffee maker, because it will not make coffee any faster than gravity will let it.
No Love, me
In other news, my sister is getting married on August 5th, this is part of unresolved issues, as I think she is being a stupid idiot with no thoughts in her head other than marriage will make things better. She knows better than that, she saw what our parents went through. But I am a good older sister and have taken off work to go and see her. I will also be bringing back as much of my stuff that is still left at home and decide what to do with it before I move in a month. Thankfully, the apartment is only half a block away so carrying things will not be difficult.
I'm working about ninety hours in the next two weeks...blarg. But I need the money and as long as I get my butt in gear with the job searching, Mozarts won't last through August, because I can't afford to work only 20 hours a week at 6.50 and working any more than that will drive me crazy.
My birthday was ok, spent the entire weekend working but I got paid and received lovely gifts of money and JoAnn's gift cards so that I don't have to spend my money on my garb and pay for a security deposit on the apartment. I think that is everything for now. I might jot things down later, should something niggle its way back to my thoughts. Now for a bath and then sewing.
Stop playing games with my emotions. I know there are issues that I need to deal with and every once in a while I think about going to talk to someone about them, possibly once school starts again, I haven't decided. I don't need you to remind me of my insecurities and weaknesses while I'm the only one at work and need to get things ready in the morning by nine a.m. It does me no good to want to yell at the coffee maker, because it will not make coffee any faster than gravity will let it.
No Love, me
In other news, my sister is getting married on August 5th, this is part of unresolved issues, as I think she is being a stupid idiot with no thoughts in her head other than marriage will make things better. She knows better than that, she saw what our parents went through. But I am a good older sister and have taken off work to go and see her. I will also be bringing back as much of my stuff that is still left at home and decide what to do with it before I move in a month. Thankfully, the apartment is only half a block away so carrying things will not be difficult.
I'm working about ninety hours in the next two weeks...blarg. But I need the money and as long as I get my butt in gear with the job searching, Mozarts won't last through August, because I can't afford to work only 20 hours a week at 6.50 and working any more than that will drive me crazy.
My birthday was ok, spent the entire weekend working but I got paid and received lovely gifts of money and JoAnn's gift cards so that I don't have to spend my money on my garb and pay for a security deposit on the apartment. I think that is everything for now. I might jot things down later, should something niggle its way back to my thoughts. Now for a bath and then sewing.
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Date: 2006-07-26 10:02 pm (UTC)"I don't need you to remind me of my insecurities and weaknesses while I'm the only one at work and need to get things ready in the morning by nine a.m"
I know exactly how you feel on this one. I went through this a lot last summer, wandering the aisles during quiet times and thinking too much. Just remember that it IS in your head, some real, some not, and you have the power to spin it happy or otherwise.
HUUUUUGS, glad to hear that other things are ok.
:-)
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Date: 2006-07-26 10:08 pm (UTC)This is mostly to remind me of just that. I spent most of the morning fuming and being upset, and by the time I was done with work....I didn't see the point anymore. Or rather it didn't seem to make that much of a difference as it had bright and early this morning. Things will work out, I just have to keep remembering that.
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Date: 2006-07-26 11:19 pm (UTC)