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Jan. 12th, 2005 11:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
textileowlSo anyway...should I be worried that people can actually see me ? They never could before and yet here apparently...
It's weird to hear your own thoughts coming out of someone else's mouth. The things that you've been parroting to yourself for years are suddenly out in the light and funnily enough, it doesn't burn like you expect after hiding in the shadows and creeping about behind walls hard won. Friends have never been more than aquaitances that I talked to on a semi-regular basis. Nothing terribly intimate or as familar as people are becoming. They never pushed to be more and I never let on that there was needed to be more.
With Aron, even, things were never this smooth. We were good friends but I still was never really me with him. Maybe that's why things fell as they did. Gah, am not thinking about that tonight.
Alright, going to finish watching Harry Potter, cause I like this movie and for some reason it amuses me.
It's weird to hear your own thoughts coming out of someone else's mouth. The things that you've been parroting to yourself for years are suddenly out in the light and funnily enough, it doesn't burn like you expect after hiding in the shadows and creeping about behind walls hard won. Friends have never been more than aquaitances that I talked to on a semi-regular basis. Nothing terribly intimate or as familar as people are becoming. They never pushed to be more and I never let on that there was needed to be more.
With Aron, even, things were never this smooth. We were good friends but I still was never really me with him. Maybe that's why things fell as they did. Gah, am not thinking about that tonight.
Alright, going to finish watching Harry Potter, cause I like this movie and for some reason it amuses me.
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Date: 2005-01-12 09:30 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-01-12 10:26 pm (UTC)