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[textileowl]

So, two more exams to go and unfortunately for me, they are the hardest and the ones for which I should have studied.

I haven't been able to keep my mind on much of anything the last 4? days...everything cycles back to Aron. This is much harder than I could have ever guessed.

I think I should probably write my exams with a clause, but feel that since I have left telling my TA's for so long that I am *shrugs* not allowed. I don't know, it isn't that they wouldn't let me, but that I thought that I would be able to study or at least do well enough. Now I'm not so sure, after sleeping away most of this morning and barely being able to look at the notes for my sociology exam that is at 7:30 in the morning.

I just want this quarter to end, and asking for more time means that it won't end and it would be that much harder to keep going. Not doing well on these exams won't drop my grades too much and maybe next quarter I can get back and concentrate on bringing my GPA back up, as it has slowly been slipping lower and lower.

The last three months have really fucking sucked.

The viewing is Thursday between 4 and 8, then the funeral is Friday at 10:30. They're burying him in Texas, which is fitting. He wanted to eventually move back anyway. I'm not going to be able to handle going to both, I know this now, it will be hard enough to go to even one. There will be people there I haven't talked to in years and really, still even after talking to Deb and Kyle on the phone, I feel like an interloper. I left and therefore don't really have a part in this, but it seems that no one else thinks so- or says it out loud anyway. I guess I'll see how things go on Thursday.

For now...I should try and get even a little bit of sleep, exam bright and early

Comments

[talyr.livejournal.com]

i know you are are already in your sociology exam, but i would really tell your TAs what happenned if you need extra time or consideration. It canj't hurt, and even though you didn't tell them *right away* they will probably still cut you some slack. Don't feel bad about asking for help! You're going through a rough time, its ok to ask for special consideration.

Let me know how else i can help!

[textileowl.livejournal.com]

I got lucky this morning, my Sociology TA didn't have our exams printed because the copier for the department broke. It is now a take home exam to turn in after twenty four hours. A reprieve good enough for me.

[whisperwheel.livejournal.com]

*cuddles*

[osucssndr.livejournal.com]

Now you know what it was almost like for me to lose Heather. ::hugs::